Yup. That’s why I was MIA on stories for about 10 days. BUT let me tell you, tomorrow marks two weeks into my recovery and I’m SO HAPPY I finally went through with it. I spent YEARS of my life on this decision. I’ve always hated my nose. From middle school until now, it has always bothered me. In my photos, you’ll notice you never see a side/profile view. You never see a side part. You never see a slicked back hairdo. I am methodical and do this on purpose because all of those things draw attention to my (old) large nose. It might sound crazy, but we all have insecurities. My nose in particular was one that just has always gnawed at me and since it can be fixed, why wouldn’t I fix it? I always wanted to do it, but for years there were two things that stopped me: fear and money.
Oh fear. Something we all relate to, all have and all joke about. I’m afraid of snakes, spiders, car accidents, etc. But how many people talk about real life fears like I’m afraid to have a kid because what if I’m a terrible mother? Or I’m afraid to get surgery because what if I don’t wake up? I went through worst case scenarios of what if I don’t wake up? Am I proud of my 28 years on this Earth? Would I wish I had said done/said something to anyone? Told them I loved them one more time? (FYI anesthesia is pretty safe and you have to get a blood test prior to surgery to show you are healthy enough to go under) When people are forced into surgery, like open heart or an ACL tear, they don’t say I’m not going to do it because I’m afraid. They do it because their doctor told them they had to. And we all trust (most) doctors don’t we? And if they told us we needed to get a certain surgery to fix something, we would, wouldn’t we? This, along with the many success stories from others about their surgeries for a plethora of ailments, have helped me confront this fear. Would I really let fear get in the way of this? Do you want to know what else helped? Skydiving. I’m not even kidding. It was a bucket list item of mine that I never thought I would actually do because I am (was?) afraid of heights. However, my future sister-in-law found a place in Oahu that we could go to and I knew I couldn’t back out. Skydiving in Hawaii?! I mean, it doesn’t get any cooler than that. So I did it. I told her she couldn’t let me back out. I wanted to kill her the hours leading up to it and the entire plane ride. But, now I owe her a thanks. I conquered a HUGE fear of mine. And guess what, it’s all in our heads. Mind over matter. It’s always your mind that tricks you into these fears and it’s your mind that will get you out of them. Trust yourself.
Also another FYI I am squeamish AF. Like I-fainted-in-my-consultation-with-my-doctor kind of squeamish. I was nervous about the blood work for months because I knew I had to get it. I hate needles, I have a terrible pain tolerance and I was so anxious the day before that I could barely eat and fainted at work. So again, if I can do it, TRUST ME, you can. No joke, my family and friends were laughing that I actually went through with it because they know how squeamish I am. So yeah, there’s that.
Next up: another fun topic that everyone loves to talk about LOL money. We all have it, we all need it and we all want more of it (no? just me?). Rhinoplasty (nose job) is a cosmetic procedure for me since I don’t have a deviated septum or need it to be fixed after breaking it. Aka I need to pay for all of it with zero help from insurance. So how was I supposed to come up with the $7,500 I got quoted for? It wasn’t going to be easy, but with some budgeting, spending cuts and a vision of my new nose in my head, I did it. (Spoiler alert). I’m good with money thank goodness and was able to save all of it over 6 months. I paid the bill on October 30th for my November 21st surgery date. And not only was it a big relief, it was a proud moment. I was proud of myself that I was making this happen after years and years of thinking about it. And I would never go back. I would do it 100 times over.
SO – my secret is out. Do you guys have questions? What was recovery like? What did I look like? How scary was I? Should I do a post on saving money? Budgeting? I’m happy to be an open book. As someone who was freaking out and so nervous, the more I knew (in certain instances, like what recovery would be like NOT like what they are doing when I’m asleep), was SO helpful. Also I’m less than two weeks from the surgery so I can give you a complete play-by-play on what I was feeling and looking like each day afterwards. Plus give you tips on how to help the swelling (thanks to Lauryn Evarts of TSC).
Thank you, thank you for reading. Below is the simulated photo of the before and after and my doctor says he got it to look exactly like the after picture. It’s still swollen, so it will be a little bit before it looks exactly like that, but I’m thrilled with how it looks so far. And if you’re local to the NJ area, I have the most amazing, amazing, doctor rec for you. Dr. Zubowski and his team has been nothing short of amazing. I would recommend them 10000000x over.